Part 2 of the red awakening

If red is associated to ANGER.. then i am trying to think of a colour to express my inner voice today.My inner voice said lets just pack, sell all my belongings and drive to the nearest place that I REALLY LOVE and start all OVER>
 Wah! would anyone in the right  mind do that?Would you? I asked myself last nite in tears.I calm myself by saying that is the very very angry monster in me waiting to be unleash.
When  the sun greets me on the way to work, i much more calm maybe a hint of orange aura. At times when my students warm my heart with a sweet smile or at least do my work in class, my red fire starts to mellow bit by bit.On bad days like these.. I dress better making myself happy.Hoping that the red monster will slow turn blue...blue lighter blue then white.......CALM.


After a lovely breakfast of soya beans and green apples, I looked out of my room... beautiful tree with red flowers... so fresh and beautiful.Yet, the red monster is not at ease... WHY???? fights after fights no end no solution. Inner voice commented seek inner peace. INNER PEACE... i heard that in Kung Fu Panda 2...Do i really to take classes in Kung Fu?


Haha... my family would just rolled and died in tears of laughter if I should say that. They are so very good in twisting my words and ides which made me upset cos no one is taking the freaking mama seriously....