A bad nightmare. I was awaken in this bad nightmare. I felt like a victim loving someone so much yet losing the grip of the relationship.
The drama started felt so very trapped like a bird in a cage looking for an escape route. The view became blur after so long together.Tears rolled down begging for forgiveness since it helped the relationship when it wasn't my fault. I am the victim but I held on knowing that there is no happy ending in this nightmare. My soul left my body having the pain so heavy like the heart went into pieces.
After the tears and pain, no deny evil ideas and thoughts came to the mind... Hurt myself, cut him into pieces or even kill him.. Such bad karma in me.That was the evil me.... Anything is possible yet I kept all the pain and hid them somewhere in me. I even wanted to drive over my froggie on him not showed NO MERCY.
Thank God... all above mentioned was not carried out when the tears stopped and the sun came out. Another day should be much better. The head is clear. Is it?
The pain is there but a bit bearable in scale. Maybe I am a damaged goods from the humble beginning and too mentally trapped.
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