Omg... I have been staying in this hse for nearly 30 decades. Moving out is my choice of trying to be independant so call to start all over. I have been the sole bread earner to my kid which many people failed to understand me including my family. I have played my part of an obedient wife from washing, cooking and even having a baby 23 yrs ago.
I have thrown all my remorsity out the window with all the shed tears leaving me a damaged goods that refused to look deep into my soul. As the age increases, so did the patience to wait for the kid to move on with her life leaving the nest to another country trying out her luck. I gave all my blessing knowing that I cannot tie her round me. The bird has to fly high and soar seeking new experience.
I am thankful on days that she calls home reminding that she still loves me , thinking of me. My life has to go on. I want fresh start away from all the old memories. From a hse of 4 rooms to a small condo with 2 rooms should be a nightmare to any human on earth. I will struggle to manage the packing all my memories into boxes. Mostly, I want to be on my own since many many times in these years, I have been called not so good names by him from a bitch to a WHORE. To make the matter worse, He even said to my family members that I am equal to a Geyland WHORE. No, i took many deep deep breathe and told myself to rise higher than him. He is not worth my love.Despite all the bitterness, in the depth of my heart, I felt like saying that all the money you have in the world, you will grow old alone. No money will be able to buy my love again what the respect that I had.
Bitterness are still lingering within the walls of my soul. Time will wash away all these remarks. I will hold my head high and remind myself that I have done good.AMEN......
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